So first public blog post. Wow. This is monumental. Technically, it isn’t my first ever, but since Xanga is now defunct, this may as well be my first. And boy am I glad that no one has access to my 15-year-old musings…
So why has this taken me so long?
When someone suggested that I write on a more public platform, my immediate thought was, “nahhh, ain’t nobody wanna read what I gotta say”.
But more importantly – why would I want to put myself out there for all to see? Like every next person, my life is multi-faceted – I have family, friends, career, and all the little aspects of my life in between – and each of these aspects has required me to take on different facades.
Thus far, I have had to portray different aspects of my personality in the different aspects of my life. And so for some time now, I have struggled with the concept of having my musings up on the world wide web for all to see – family with whom I maintain conservative relationships, friends who are not apprised of the full array of my vulnerabilities, acquaintances who don’t know me and who will judge me, employers and co-workers to whom I have had to present a composed, emotionless facade. I’m sure many of you can relate – I wouldn’t have the sort of flippant banter with my parents the way I would with my friends and I would be fired immediately for answering back to my bosses in the way I do with my family.
So you see, the thought of having different persons from different facets of my life be privy to my life and thoughts was, to say the least, daunting.
With a little nudge from people who have held only the strongest of beliefs in me and my abilities, I have finally come to understand that that is no attitude to have. At the age of 25, it has taken me long enough, but hey – I’m just thankful to have come to this realisation sooner rather than later.
Wish me godspeed, good people of the internet, as I foray into the world blogging, vlogging*, and social media hogging.
Ps: If you’re reading this before my visuals have gone up, bear with me while I take some time to figure out the best way to present myself to you. In the meantime, word-spinning is about all I can offer, but design work, rest assured, I WILL CONQUER YOU.
* If I’m being honest, this is unlikely… But it made for a decent rhyme scheme, so I couldn’t resist.